by Thaedael » Wed Sep 19, 2012 5:21 am
I guess I should explain myself a little more to you asian, since you seem to think I come across as an asshole. Hell maybe I am turning into trunks after having done this for a few years now. I started by joining legend of krystal with the intent of helping a person make his dreams come true, only for him to quit. Along the way I made some friends, and had some fun. A lot of people grew disenchanted with how long it took venerable brother Renara to do anything, and as such trunks and jaysteppes decided to do a side project, which kinda fell apart. I saw how people were trash talking them, slinging mud at their names, and impeding any and all productivity on the project. I got pissed and became a moderator, and helped to try and re-spark interest in the project. Lost a lot of sleep, learned a lot of skills to make a game happen, co-ordinated between many people, and redoubled my efforts into building a community that would care. What did I get instead? I got people yelling at trunks telling him he knew nothing about how to make a game, people bitching at our concept artist until she quit and pursued better and more worthwhile things, and of course the greatest lok sin of all, traumatizing a friend of mine who since then has pretty much lost the will to do any drawing at all these days.
So I said, you know what, fuck it. Area_52 shut down, it's members went and did better things. I rallied Kuja and KatsuO_O to make a game with me. It was going well people were interested, I was losing sleep, writing for days on end, making costumes, getting Kuja to draw everything just right, getting friends in real life to proof read the script and the like. What did we get? When people found out it wasn't a porn game? I was getting 50 private messages a day, for 2 months telling me I had no place on the forum, that my idea was stupid, that my game was stupid, that I was an idiot, that my artist suck and my programmer was unreliable. Well guess what. I decided to make a porn game instead discarding all motivation and the like.
So fast forward to the present. Now I have no motivation to moderate, even though after KatsuO_O and I bled to build better forums, listening to idiots who wanted to make rps, busting our ass to make it work and to some degree of success now that there are many projects (game maker projects too mind you new guy). There are people like gorepete now making cool games, teaching people, and attracting more members to the site than I could have ever dreamed that I myself would have made. We got wonderful moderators in the RP section that get more people coming in and having fun.
Where do the evil we battle for a year and a bit lead to? Katsu quit being a moderator, I tried quitting but Renara still hasn't taken my power away, and now I fear I lost the proper impartial restraing I had. In a time when the forums have been doing better than ever before I can't ever pursue the game I want. Why? People like him saying ideas are stupid, or demolishing team members motivations. My graphic artist is a real person, in a real country, with a real sister that depends on him. I haven't seen him in days. My animator hates doing artwork because people were too critical and now does animations instead. Me? I barely have time between working 2 jobs and going to school with double major double honors.
So when I see people suggesting what should and shouldn't be done, I will not stand for it. This community has transcended the idea that spawned it, and has become a leading game development site, a fun place for many to learn things. So when you say make a real game, that the efforts of people like you or me are just spam, it irks me. If I was paid for how much of my spare time went into this forums to make it a little better, I would have been able to make it buy with just one job. So keep it in mind in the future!
/rant TL;DR as a moderator I just want to disapprove all your posts to stop you from posting in RP, your true goal. I regret also listening to assholes at the time and not doing something I aspired to for years, and now will never have the time to do.