by hat973 » Tue Nov 07, 2017 12:25 pm
Code: Red
So I hate to bring my real life up to you guys but when something in my life threatens Red ,threatens ME and threatens the games I have to let you guys know. So you guys know I live with my father and my step mom. I am 23 years of age soon to be 24 by the end of the year and iv been working on this game since I was 19. Yes I know 4 years on this game and all I can give you is a pre-alpha or alpha still learning how to label it. But the reason I call this "Code: Red" is because I work a part time job 5 hours a day for 5 days and I get payed every 2 weeks my father a vet of the gulf war wants me to kill my life on the web and out in the real world. Basically he goes on and on about getting a full time or a 2nd part time job. If you live in the US you guys will know how hard it is to get a job if you don't have any disabilities me I have a disability I have Autism or Asperger to be clear they lumped my disability with the rest a few years back. But I am high functioning but also I'm emotional and easy to over work. If you give me 2 simple jobs like trash and dishes and keep me in that place I'll do fine but if you give me say 6 jobs like house chores,School work,Job,working on the games, and shoveling snow. You get a hell of a harder time of getting me to do anything I'm at max stress level and I'll end up getting depressed more and more easy to snap at people. Currently this panda has 3 to 4 stuff on my plait Life,House work,Working on the game,Work and that's all I can stand really but my father wants me making more money or doing something instead of "sitting around the house.". He is honest to god hypocrite cause he does it every day and also sleep most of the day and then cry's and whines like a 2 year old cause he can't bring him self to go out side and spend time with the 3 neighbors he talks to the most. I will bust ass to make this game happen but I'm issuing this warning if I can't do anything because of the extra f*cking work I will most liking yanking my hair out and losing all respect for any vet who does this to there children. Also before anyone says he is doing what he thinks best for you he left my life when I was 6 and came back in my life when I was 14 he did nothing but sleep and he had a few jobs here and there but when he didn't he was on his computer or a computer and playing The Sims. He never did anything to help me with my bullies he never did anything to fix any general hate he caused he just do something dumb and he bitch and whine about it. The only reason I'm in this boat right now is because he got a dumb camper and is now using all his money to pay off something me and my step mom told him NO on getting. Any way done with my ranting long story short I'm praying to god currently that he will shut up about this money issue cause what I'm doing currently is what I love to do but being drilled to be like my father and work 2 to 3 jobs and (In one of his story's) still sleep under a f*cking bush. Sorry again for this long rant when stuff like this is causing me to really look at my life and debate about why my family cause me to have art blocks. I'm still going to do my best to fit this game into my life even if i'll be strangling my self to do it and I know you guys may say if something stress you out drop it and come back to it later. That's what scares me if I drop this game to go to University and try to juggle all my life's new BS. I'm going to be scared i'm going to leave this game and leave the people who wants to see this game. I'm honestly scared....but if the next post I put up is a Unplugged Plug. Pray for me....