My sincerest apologies, brother. I was so eager to see you I couldn't concentrate on preparations for the bash.
For clarification's sake, my character's rank is Private or something equivalent.
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There are no sinners in this sea of stars.
It has always been so that Man can only dream of the stars. Not content with their countless generations consumed spilling blood and tears for the sake of meaningless soil, criminals, hopefuls and transgressors of countless laws and beliefs sought refuge in the vastness of space where guilt and regret had no meaning. Although the cleverest animals – who went by many names and came from many places – had sought to apply the insecurities of their birth to the cosmos above, a few of the souls among both Men and who they chose to be their allies and enemies knew that the universe was too vast to hold in the fist of any conqueror and too bound to its own logic to bend to the ideas and wisdom of any animal, no matter their greatness.
Confident in this thought (or just desperate for it to be true) these souls fled from their sins and their crimes, into the stars where no animal's talons could tear in to the transgressions of their birthplace. It was said that for every wrong in the galaxy and the galaxies beyond it, there was always a place where it was right, and even as the talons of the Republic of Trans-Galactic Systems endured and broadened over the centuries since Man joined his fellow learned animals, the universe remained empty of sin. The individual knew little, and the collective they formed staked claim to all but held little, and hence both were nothing at all; every animal could find his place in the stars, no matter the depth of the prison designed to restrain their dreams of the stars.
And then there were those individuals who wished the stars would dream of them. Few people know such souls better than Fate, as she is one of their progeny.
She did not know where in the universe to call her birthplace, and as she matured the capacity to think on such things, she realized she did not care; the grandeur of the cosmos suppressed the angst of not knowing one's origins, and the thrumming metals and buzzing lights of the vast, wandering vessel she called her first home reassured her that the universe around her was more than just ideas and unseen forces, even in those pockets of Republic space where the aftershocks of change from the faraway seats of power weren't encountered for months or even years. Politics and war, to them, were a theory, and Fate valued those people: some old – and one as ancient as humanity's ascent into the stars – and others in between. But mostly her fellow young. Each of them had adopted her as one of their own when she was scurried away by chance from a starship listing aimlessly around a now-dead star.
Entombed within a cryopod was that girl, who was a human, but who did not understand the meaning of the word, and who could speak but who did not know her own name. On the ship, there was no manifest and no record of its voyage, but the cradle of its only passenger was marked with a word:
FATE
She came to know herself as a troubled young woman, as did those around her, but she knew she was not truly an orphan; as an enthusiast of philosophy many times her senior but also a dreamer, she was confident she had witnessed some truths both in her sleep and her waking day. In the dark, she battled foggy memories of oppressive whiteness that whirled around her like a snowstorm, tantalizing her with silhouettes of Men who drew near and then slipped away, and of an ocean-eyed woman dressed in red, and at day she duelled with questions for which none of her peers could conceive an answer as she eyed the passing stars, which for her, never ceased to twinkle. As with most people in the universe, she was not particularly happy or particularly sad, either.
The institution charged with her care synthesized powerful drugs to tame her frequent migraines, anxiety, insomnia or nightmares, and while they subdued her appreciation of the lights and the stars, they affirmed a chance to interact with the fellow children who normally ignored or avoided her.
She was not deformed and she was not hateful, but Fate, as she'd learned to call herself, always smiled.
Even in the monotonous, drifting vessel of colonists where luck and not schedule determined intrigue, she realized that there was always something to be found which made one smile, even through the headaches, the panic attacks and the way the world around her became violent when she screamed. Fate treated herself to many hours reading the works of the Republic's great authors, even the ones recorded only in the more difficult dialects of the Dracolites and Neo-Elves which challenged her apparent capacity for language, and amused herself by drawing charts of the surrounding stars when the ship paused in orbit, only to throw them away when the vessel moved on and the maps became meaningless.
And for the longest time it was okay for her to be by herself, even during the few opportunities she had to visit the colonies or the thriving homeworlds. She had few obligations, few wants, little power and no sins.
There was a day she did not smile.
Fate does not remember – or rather, chooses not to remember – that day, when, bleeding and in tears, she watched the first and only world she'd known descend into the stars in flames. The sound of lightning, the glare of lights and the groan of metal suppressed what sense there was to be made of those memories. Over and over again, she has relived the experience in her sleep, and every time there were no other people, but rather just herself, drifting through a hellish world that floated around her impossibly, inviting her to touch the stars and watch them burst into flames or scatter into light in her grasp. And every time, the cool snowstorm came to wash away the agony, erasing all traces of the people and the world she'd come to know and encasing her in ice.
When she first awoke from that dream, she was in a different place, and in front of her was a stranger. She was frigid and bloodied, but that stranger gave her warmth and health. Once again, she was surrounded by the thrum of metal and the glimmer of stars, but slowly, under the watch of that stranger and his companions, she came to realize it was not the same. These strangers were kindhearted, but in their looks there was steel, and they carried themselves as warriors and not wanderers. They were a military unit, she learned. They called themselves the Platinum Stilettos, and few in this universe had not heard of them.
Fate was one such person, but it did not matter. In every galaxy and every society, there are always tales of the knights who prowl the stars to uphold their justice; humans had enjoyed such legends since their formative years, while the Neo-Elves have enjoyed tales of vagrant heroes since they first took to the heavens. The Platinum Stilettos were just that, Fate thought: knights who served their promised goals, and moved the stars themselves not through their blades, but by becoming immortal in the intergalactic consciousness. They were what all people of the stars wanted to be: strong and self-fulfilling, resourced to serve their own mandate and willing to do so as they travelled the cosmos.
It was one night, lying in the bed given to her, that Fate decided that was what she wanted to be, too.
For a time, she was only a civilian – a liability on board a military ship, and destined for some sterile area of the galaxy where her story could be untangled. But she had been recovered drifting in one of the most dangerous regions of space, sealed in an icy, mineral-encrusted cryopod doomed for the fiery heart of some nearby star, and there was no pulling back from a mission to deliver her to the waiting hands of the Republic. So she watched from the side lines, overawed by the many machines and tools designed for murder, and the countless aisles of instruments designed to heal and entertain which underpinned them all. For all of their devotion to war, the Stilettos had donated just as much of their time to simply being people.
Though, it was after they had returned from their mission – drenched in blood, grime and sweat – and swerved around their vessel to turn for home that Fate truly came to know who they were.
As she stared at the passing stars one night, a great fire engulfed their ship, and the loud roar of energy against metal threw her to the ground. Desperate, she ran to seek the help of the strangers who had taken her in, only to be blinded by an oppressive light. When she awoke, creatures in menacing armour stood above her, surrounded by sparks and flames, and she felt it was her time to die. She closed her eyes, awaiting the inevitable, and screamed--
Afterwards, she dreamt for a long time of the snow, the woman in red and the glow of stars. When she awoke next, she was not in the grey domain of death, or in the care of the Republic, but rather in the arms of the Stilettos. Above her once more was the first of the strangers. To her, he whispered something, and to him, she whispered something back.
It was then she knew that her new and only home in this universe was with the Platinum Stilettos.
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That was several years ago, when Fate was always anxious for time to grind onwards. Though she was not a soldier or an expert of any sorts, in the company of Platinum Stilettos, she never ran out of ways to donate her time; they were, after all, more than just hands to bear guns. The ship she had taken a liking to had the comforts of any home, and after a time, she became used to seeing them off as they descended into the atmosphere of awaiting planets to fight for their lives, or hide when the ship was rocked with gunfire. When the time came for her to officially seek admittance into the fighting forces of the Republic, she leapt at the opportunity, hoping that she could finally join her companions in the field – even if it could kill her.
The months spent away at a training station were among the loneliest in her recent life, but Fate never missed a beat trying to apply what she had gleaned to the many tests before her in the hopes of continuing the life she had begun to conceive for herself. It was only when she graduated as a naval recruit that she was told no amount of years as a companion of the Stilettos qualified her to join them as a soldier: she was not an exceptionally good shot, not particularly strong, fast or tough, and the skills she had demonstrated were no more than average. It would have seemed she sealed her destiny as an average recruit into the rank-and-file of the military.
Faced with the final commitment to sign her contract for several years of service in some different part of the galaxy, she hesitated.
It was shortly after that a call came in from somewhere up above. Her history with the Stilettos was not lost on someone in the brass, it seemed, and within moments, Fate was signing away a promise to join the elite ranks of the Platinum Stilettos as an official new recruit. At that time, she smiled endlessly, hardly thinking of the uncertainty and strangeness of her life and circumstances which would later come to stalk her.
But that time has yet to come.
Fate has spent the last week furiously preparing her new life in the company of the Stilettos, and much more recently, trying to contend with the announcement of her first mission – a heart-quickening trip to Belle Magnis to confront a suspected rebel assault.
And still, it was not the concern of bloodshed or violence that concerned her. It was her dreams.
While once she dreamt of the stars, she now only sees the heavens aflame – and falling.