by Thaedael » Wed Mar 27, 2013 5:46 am
He kept in pace with her, walking down along the crushed brick path that led along the side of a shallow creek, the grass growing taller and the trees closer together. It was an area that was a little more private than the rolling open greens of the park way, and provided a nice canopy of big green leaves that cut the rays of the sun into a tangible warmth that was pleasant on the skin. It had been a long time since he had the company of Angela, and a day like today could not have been better weather if he had asked for it. He walked shoulder to shoulder with her, Lanx purring away happily as he was spoiled half to death, a free hand moving to just under his chin and running along the length of his softer fur, the cat's eyes drawn to a close as he happily enjoyed the attention his friend gave him. He was a spoiled cat, Lanx and Gavin knowing this, but neither calling the other out on it for their bond was that much closer than ever before, the days of being scratched to oblivion by the fierce feline long gone.
Angela had ceased to look at him for a few moments in passing, her gaze drawn away from him, her face half silhouetted against the afternoon sunlight that danced along her features out from under the rim of her witch's hat. She was as cute as ever, her hair the shade of a warm earthy tone, yet something was written across her face. He had done it again, he chastised himself looking away from her out towards the left of the path, his eyes tracing the water flowing along the winding pathway of the channel. The brown water rushed by matted mud and tall grass dancing in the little breeze that made it past the cover of the tree line on the eastern path. The sound of the wind calm, the trickle of the creek relaxing. He had something, and surely on some psychological level, he had said something that did not sit well with the girl. He looked down to his feet as they continued to walk, the red dust of the path building up on the black leather of his shoes, and on the hems of his pants as they continued to walk. He looked down at Lanx, the cat eyeing him with a level of intelligence that had always made Gavin believe the cat saw right through him. He drew breath, opened his mouth, ready to speak to Angela, however, she spoke first.
"It's not that great." she had broken the silence that had hung in the air about the two as they walked. She had slowed down, to continue to talk to him, her voice becoming more composed, "I mean, just looking at someone and drawing them is basically the same as tracing." Another quick pause, before a follow up, "I don't want to just be able to draw things that I can already see, I want to show people something they're never seen before, something that can inspire them!"
He was taken aback by her sudden confession, what she said being both a revelation of her ambition and something he had not suspected her of thinking. He truly thought he had said something that had angered her, but instead it steeled a conviction within her. He let out a small smile between pursed lips, the creases at the sides of his mouth wrinkling a little before he forced himself to suppress his smile. She had more ambition than he would ever have, a visionary goal she could see, taste, and chase down. All he wanted was to be happy, to go with the rolling tides of life and going towards the things that truly made him feel... something, anything that wasn't the cold grasp of disappointment and expectation. He didn't know what he wanted, just that it was something that would lead to happiness, something that would happen organically and not be planned, so that if a master plan did not happen, he would not be depressed. He was a dreamer more than anything else, untethered to the milieu of the reality that fate had chosen him.
His lack of a response must have caused her to believe he thought she was weird, for she drew in her enthusiasm, her mannerisms slowing down as the two came to stand upon an old worn wooden bridge, the structure bridging the two halves of the park together. Gavin looked at her, a bit dumbfounded and at a loss for words, she held her notepad firmly against her chest. She made eye contact, her eyes scanning his face for any expression, before speaking once more, "I mean, if I'm ever good enough to be worth someone's attention that is..."
She smiled, and the warmth of it shot through him, before realized it was directed to the cat. She took a few steps towards him, before petting Lanx in his arms. Gavin shifted the cat up towards Angela, her hands rubbing at the cat gently, soft finger tips brushing against Gavin as she continued to speak, "Besides, they're not even colored. That's a whole 'nother dimension of drawing that I haven't the slightest clue how to deal with"
He leaned in close to Angela, content that he had listened twice more than he spoke, the advice of his father giving him the rare opportunity of seeing into the mind of his child hood friend, allowing her to have the chance to talk to him when he would have otherwise drowned her out with his extroverted tendency to talk. Their fore heads touched, and he looked into her eyes. He tried to formulate what he would say, trying to pick and choose the words in such a way as to tread around any possible misinterpretations.
"I understand that sometimes you don't want to hear what I have to say, and I understand that my opinion may not always be the most important thing to you, but that drawing of me is that great". He let it sink in a little more, trying to decide how to proceed. "The fact the you were able to draw something so close in my likenesses is not something to dismiss as not great. If you want to draw something that no one has ever seen before, I will not tell you not to chase your ambitions, in fact I even encourage it" he took a deep breath. "However, if you ever hesitate to think you aren't already worth someone's attention now, that I will not forgive, nor will I forgive my actions in expressing this notion. Everyone is worth someone's attention, you just need to find out to who we belong with as a crowd."
He pulled his face away from her, a smile cracking out across his face as he closed his eyes in an expression of joy. "Ah, hell, just look at me. I am turning into that advice sprouting old man I call father" he said laughing. He pulled a hand away from the cat in his arms, leaving it to rest nested in the crook of one arm, rubbing at the back of his head with his now free hand. "It is what it is" he said, extending the cat out with one arm to be taken back by it's master.